## [[2024-01-29]] Feeling *excited* comes moderately easy to me, sometimes. I remember having this track record of not being that *excited* about things to come. In actuality I've actually done a lot of work suppressing my own feeling of *excitement* for a while to the point where I don't really get *excited* about upcoming events, plans, etc until moments before it happens. For example, when I went to [[Cancun]] earlier this month, I didn't really feel much *excitement* for it for months even though we booked tickets months in advance and thought that we were going to have a good time. Thinking about how I don't get as *excited* about things makes me feel [[Depressed|depressed feelings]]. I feel [[Sad]] that I don't feel as excited as I used to.